patchwork kitten

this one was taken by me!

hello public diary. i handed out resumes on thursday. and got a call for an interview (just 2 hours after handing my resume into this place) for the next day (which, by the way went down smoothly). i now have a trial on monday. i think this was meant to be. it's a cute little cafe, called millie j & co. and they wear white collar t shirts with black ties. pretty snazzy. does anywhere these days still develop 120mm film?? it is so hard to find somewhere and it makes me a little sad that i can't get my last roll of film developed. oh well i'll just do it myself... the day i get my own dark room and get the tools for it. oh yeah. peanut butter m&m's are now always in my handbag. because i'm a fatty.

bring on october 27th. music music music with rachel jane. and the loml. AND several bags of peanut butter m&m's. that's the most exciting thing for me going to brisbane. and the atmosphere is just so much more different than here. just because you can walk down a street and no one will evil eye you or look you up/down. but other than that i'm not a huge city person. i like visiting the place, but i don't know if i can live in a big city.. i like the forest. cerise i'm bunking with you in melbourne one day! forest babies. photo taking.. ahh.

good night young grasshoppers. xxx

homesick sweet home

today i bought lolita (the novel). it's so dreamy so far, and i'm really looking forward to reading more and more. have you read it before? i moved to townsville yesterday, and half of my belongings are still with my parents which include my books, perfumes and documents (plus other bits and bobs). i honestly don't know if i'll be staying here for long. i feel sick in my belly. maybe just need some adjustments made. i'm not sure if i want to. i took a roll of film in to get developed and picking it up at half four. hopefully it turned out with some photos i like. i'm still upset about my damaged roll, so many good things were shot! oh well. i'm waiting for my sister to get home from picking up my nephew from school and hand me my frozen raspberry. the good thing about living in a humid climate is you never have to worry about dry skin. not me anyway. i honestly don't even want to be here right now. i just want to go in the mountains in a hut and seclude myself from society for awhile. keeping myself busy with a darkroom and baby cats and baby to play with. i miss more familiar faces. miss that good company that could make me feel better, and make me feel sooky too.. i do get sooky i know. and now i don't know what to do. maybe it's the exhaustion talking. mixed with dehydration. lack of motivation. hate feeling that way. i'll cease. happy monday all, have a great week.

planting lilacs and buttercups

lately, i've become disinterested in wanting fashion-wise things. maybe it's because i'm being really strict and saving up 3K+ for a new digital slr. but i'm ok with being like this. it means i don't spend my money on pointless worldly possessions. at least with a camera i can use it to my advantage. i recently got the yashica t4, and it is so great, cannot wait until i get the film developed. which reminds me, i am waiting to use up 2 other rolls of film! one from my diana and one from my yashica electro. i love film so much, but i really want to get back into digital photography also. so much to manipulate. my parents and i went to brisbane last thursday (came back early monday morning), and had a chance to go to maleny on sunday for the markets. it is so beautiful there, i want to go back there again sometime soon, so bad! i did manage to take some photos from the markets. it's times like these i wish i could just take a tonne of awesome photos on my analogue cameras and then i'd have a roll of film ready to go, but alas, that is not the case. my parents leave town in a couple of weeks, going to mt isa. i was really considering going with, but i think my heart lives here. but this means i have to be an adult and move out (for the first time for me) and know and trust that God has a plan. this all means that the removalists will be coming. my room is in a state that i cannot see the carpet. i've been meaning to clean up but i am after all, the queen of procrastinating. i wish i could write meaningful poetic text, but my prose is all i can give. i really want to get back into photography - i've been slacking off and feeling uninspired, as though i fell into a deep black hole. i just need to stay positive, and see the beauty in everything, life is precious!

moving on from that, i'm anticipating summer! less than a month away, and it's spring. i've already got ideas on what i want to do this summer. maybe i'll write a list up and post it here.. sounds like a good idea to me.

what i'm loving:
cuddles with c.
thick, cafe-style raisin toast.
second-hand book shops.
cheap, expired film + disposable cameras.
kate moss' wedding photos by mario testino.
lovely older ladies telling me about their fun youth.
hot baths.
soy chai latte.

all of these. makes me want to just go, start a family live for God and love life without worry.
ps. yeah, i changed my layout again. and i also changed my url.

edit. i just changed it back now.

I woke up feeling tired of life.

I think I'm suffering from psychosis.

Pinch and a punch!

Going to Brisbane for a little holiday on Thursday. I'm actually really excited, quite spontaneous as it was only planned last week and I actually managed to get extra time off work for it. I haven't been there since October last year I believe - for the Paramore concert (which was terrible, so terrible, but Relient K were probably worth the $80) with my boyfriend. Anyway, I'm excited because of the visits I'll be making to the beauty counters in David Jones and Myer. And cafe visits for a soy chai latte, mm mmm. I haven't been this excited to go to Brisbane in quite a while, feels rather strange. Maybe because I'll actually have money to spend this time around. Travelling down with ma and pa and meeting my sister while there. Peanut Butter m&m's you will be ALLLLL mine! $14.00 a pop for a big bag is definitely worth it (I'll finally get my fix, Bronni B haha).

I also bought a Yashica T4 off eBay last week, coming all the way from the U.S. of A and I cannot wait to test it out when it arrives, seen and read so many good things about the little baby. I just hope it was worth 300 smackers... I already own a Yashica Electro 35 and am super happy with him. I just love film so much!

Oh and my pretty little bike is here and assembled, it is so smooth! I want to ride it all the time. It's at my boyfriend's farm though.

I feel like doing an Old & Gold now.. so here you go!


Old

• Having a messy room.
• Driving.
• Waiting forever for parcels to arrive.
• Living with my brother.
• Not living some place sweet.
• The fact that most photo shops don't develop film! Especially 120mm for my Diana. Hmph.
• That Topshop, H&M, Primark and Drop Dead Clothing are not in Australia still.

Gold

• Pay day.
• Grapefruit.
• Crumpets w/ honey.
• Making a dent in cleaning my room.
• Holidays!
• Soy chai latte.
• These neat felt brushes that the beautiful Cerise gave me for my birthday, truly dreamy colours like water colour! So pretty.
• Plants vs Zombies game, little bit addicted.
• Having the most funniest nights when Smiley is working.
• Being happy, feeling good.

Hope you are having a swell start to your week and month, xxx