Only surrender will help you now

I'm yearning for some motivation, and some inspiration to accompany it. It's all up to me I know but nothing is doing it for me. I miss my family. Listening to Flyleaf. I love Lacey Sturm's voice. Just listening to them makes me feel better actually. I've chosen to give some things up, for the better. My choice to give up living for other people's happiness and to start living for Him. And I'm content with the sacrifices I have to make to make it happen.

Golly Sandra, You've Grown Up Really Crazy

Listening to Eisley in the air-con. I made another Facebook yesterday, and then deleted it within 24 hours. It's just really, really not doing it for me. I hate it, it's really boring and is just a useful tool to gossip and talk crap and spam people's feed with "Likes". I'm in a mood of doing creative stuff. Make some collages, use my oil pastels, water colours and acrylics.. If only I was any good at doing it haha. I did glue a piece of doily paper and put a ribbon around our honey jar though, I have the picture to prove it too.

I don't really know what else I can say here. But I'm super tired and I hate it because it's 2pm! Have a super weekend.

You Dream Maker, You Heartbreaker

So I got my Diana film back, only about 7 got developed though because of my silliness of opening up the back before it was all rewound. There was probably only 2 decent pictures out of the bunch anyway and I don't think they're even worth scanning and putting up haha. I just worked my butt off at lunch setting up for a function for 80 people, and hurrying after to prepare for tonight in the kitchen. Now, I am just so exhausted and wish I could just have a nice nap that can go for as long as I want it to, and when I wake up is when I'll go to work, that would be good. I still need to clean my room! At least today is my Thursday, one more day and then two days off. Hopefully I can get some things done during that time like wash and vacuum my car, and clean my room out to make it simply immaculate.. I bought my dear new frankie addition, now to find some time to read it. Possibly tonight after work. It just seems that I keep adding things to do on my "To Do" list, it's become overwhelming! But I feel super good about cutting back on impulsively buying unnecessary magazines. I guess all magazines are technically unnecessary unless they serve a purpose to do with your health or wellbeing, but in my case it's an overload in plain fashion and lifestyle magazines. So now the only one I will buy out of my own money is frankie, I still have subscriptions to yen, GRAZIA and RUSSH, but I think yen is the only one out of those three I'll continue with subscribing to. It's funny because it ends up costing more to subscribe to frankie than just buying the issues for the amount of time the subscription goes for.. so I just stick to doing that. Anyway, this has become a long boring blob of nothing to some of you.

I'm kind of over a lot of my music at the moment. Anyone care to share and list me a bunch of music they're liking or listening to a lot lately? I like fresh new ideas especially related to music. Love to hear from yous :) xx

Lloyd, I'm Ready To Be Heartbroken

I'm soon off to work. New frankie is out today, keen to have that in my hot little hands. Also my film will be done by the time I'm finished work this afternoon, I'm anticipating how they'll turn out and hopefully if there's some good ones I will scan them and post them up here. Health kick again! Raw food diet/vegetarian. And then soon I'll be back into my exercising regimen, hoping to lose my baby fat and get fit again! Also, I feel really fantastic not having any alcohol for almost a month now. It really is just empty calories, and doesn't make me feel good in any way whatsoever. I'd rather feel amazing with being sober and my body and liver will thank me in the long run too! I will be back later on today to post more :) I just really wanted to do a morning update because I'm feeling pretty good. Also, I'm keeping my hair out of my face and not wearing any makeup. It feels like my skin can really breathe now and will hopefully become more and more clear. My skin does tend to break out a lot more when I haven't been taking a lot of care in regards to my diet. I love going healthy food shopping. And I really like eating nuts; cashews, almonds and walnut mix is a favourite! Well, I best be off now. Happy Wednesday!

St Valentine's

1: What I am wearing now, picked up thrifting.
2: My favourite chai tea sitting in my little book cupboard.

Today I used up the rest of my 35mm film on my Diana but when I finished with it I couldn't figure out how to rewind it all back up and opened the back with the film still laid across, so I really hope it didn't ruin ALL of my film otherwise I'll be pretty devastated and annoyed. Hopefully only the last few frames are ruined because I was just mucking around to waste it up so I can finally go get the film developed haha. Lately everything I eat makes me feel sick/bloated, unless I just eat salad, which I don't mind because I love salad. I have been telling myself pretty much everyday that today will be the day I clean my room up, but that was last week.. I really do want to clean it up and rearrange everything again, but I just don't have enough motivation. It rained today, absolutely bucketed down when I was at work, I could even smell it. I love really heavy rain when I'm inside. I am really liking Camera Obscura too, lately.

Sunday Afternoon Picnic + Walkabout


My favourite soft drink, creaming soda.

Picnic sustenance.

The cigarette-smoking crow.

Living as Children of Light

Ephesians Chapter 4 Verses 17-32:

17With the Lord's authority I say this: Live no longer as the Gentiles do, for they are hopelessly confused. 18Their minds are full of darkness; they wander far from the life God gives because they have closed their minds and hardened their hearts against him. 19They have no sense of shame. They live for lustful pleasure and eagerly practice every kind of impurity.
20But that isn't what you learned about Christ. 21Since you have heard about Jesus and have learned the truth that comes from him, 22throw off your old sinful nature and your former way of life, which is corrupted by lust and deception. 23Instead, let the Spirit renew your thoughts and attitudes. 24Put on your new nature, created to be like God - truly righteous and holy.
25So stop telling lies. Let us tell our neighbours the truth, for we are all parts of the same body. 26And "don't sin by letting anger control you." Don't let the sun go down while you are still angry, 27for anger gives a foot-hold to the devil.
28If you are a thief, quit stealing. Instead, use your hands for good hard work, and then give generously to others in need. 29Don't use foul or abusive language. Let everything you say be good and helpful, so that your words will be an encouragement to those who hear them.
30And do not bring sorrow to God's Holy Spirit by the way you live. Remember, he has identified you as his own, guaranteeing that you will be saved on the day of redemption.
31Get rid of all bitterness, rage, anger, harsh words, and slander, as well as all types of evil behaviour. 32Instead, be kind to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as God through Christ has forgiven you.

This whole thing, touches me so dearly right now.

Good Morrow!

This sums up .. me, pretty much right now. Drinking chai out of my favourite teacup, looking into doing creative things, time creeping up on me, looking at maps.

Photos GC

Some photos from Gold Coast, courtesy of Caitlin L.

Hello, Again, Friend of a Friend

I wish I knew what brand these Chukka shoes were exactly, I want them so badly!

I bought season 1 and 2 of Mad Men on DVD, so I've been eager to watch that, plus I'm still waiting on my Mere Christianity book by C.S. Lewis to arrive in the mail. It's shipped over from the U.K. so I suppose I have to bear with that, maybe later on this week hopefully.

Went to Rocky on Monday and bought some new things. I bought a pair of Chambray Gypsy Roll Hem Chino pants, reduced 3 times, got them for $19.95 from $79.95! Bargain. Also another bargain hunted was my khaki Rib Linen Short purchase. And another couple of purchases from Sportsgirl included my white stripe on black sneakers and a mini metallic black sequin shoulder purse, as requested from one of my sisters, all of them being on sale too! I tend to like more of the things on sale in Sportsgirl though.. which is awesome for my wallet! I also made a trip to Barkins and found a stellar clutch/handbag. All black leather exterior and with some embellishments added to it. Which funnily enough was also on sale! I also couldn't resist but buy some ribbon from Spotlight. Colour: "Apricot", just for my hair. And I bought a silicone iPod protector case because my new iPod is already visibly scratched up.

I enjoyed a pleasant lunch with my mum at Coffee Club that day, ate quiche Lorraine with salad and had  chai tea. The tea was pretty milky but it tasted pretty yummy. I've never actually had a tea from somewhere, brought out to me in a little teapot. So that was nice. All on my day off.

In other news, me and my sisters will be making a trip down to Melbourne in July to trek around and soak in all the apparent loveliness of the city. They've both been there, but I'm yet to experience the so-called amazing place. I can tell I'll love it already. I know a girl who lives there, a couple of people I know over the internet, and we've been so excited for to one day be able to meet and talk! In real life haha. So she'll be showing me the go-to places whilst there. I can't wait.

Nutella and Peanut Butter sandwich with a glass of milk to wash it down, is the most best snack/combination ever! It combines all of my favourite things into one... or maybe it's two, seeing as  though it consists of a sandwich AND a drink..?

Anyway. I've been listening non stop to TDWP. I plan on going to one of their next shows they make down to Aus.

A lot of magazines lately are extremely boring to me. Frankie seems to still be the only one which I adore more and more with each issue. Yen comes up there too. But that's about it. A lot of "fashion" dedicated magazines bore me. It's generally the same thing with each issue. And I'm over "art" brought into the industry. I want quality and simpleness; not diehard, try-hards forcing something down my throat. And I'm not all that interested in celebrity gossip either, so GRAZIA has become a no-longer-interested-in mag, I've never really liked weekly tabloids anyway.

Well there's more than enough I should be blabbing on about, hope you didn't get too bored and wanted to poke your eyes out or something. Have a grand week! xx